If you haven’t noticed by my previous three/four posts that were, I’ll admit, a major cop-out, I’m struggling with blogmas.
Yes, I am struggling. And it is hard, especially as the next week is going to completely wipe me out. And I can only hope that over this short rest-break of the weekend (where I’m actually doing about 5 different things and seeing about 5 different lots of people, but let’s just ignore that), I can catch myself back up to speed, get my plans back in order, and be ready.
I think at the moment, the reason I’m struggling is because I haven’t had the quiet time, alone, at home, to plan, write and take blog photos. I don;t like writing anywhere else, it distracts me, and I feel self conscious. I can barely take photos due to light being an issue (going to work in the dark and coming home in the dark only leaves room for the shitty artificial lighting in my room… not good). It’s hard. And I haven’t had a lot of down time to myself at home due to work commitments, seeing family and friends, being out all weekend and just generally.. having a life, for a change.
I struggle with keeping up with things as it is, always have. I’m generally the most forgetful person you’ll ever meet. Honestly. I forget to text my own mum. If my head wasn’t screwed on, I’d lose it within a day.
As a child I was constantly being nagged at for forgetting to do things, bring things home, talk to people about things, and everything else that children just simply don’t do, because their minds are on other things (I don’t know what though). And as I’ve gotten older, it’s gotten better. But it’s only made me more paranoid. I’m constantly worried my car is gonna be stolen or it’ll roll off the drive in the middle of the night because I forgot to lock it.
And this makes it worse, because while I’m frantically trying not to forget one thing, I end up forgetting everything else. It’s a vicious cycle. But this time, I’m determined to make it work.
I will complete blogmas in 2016. I’ve completed just shy of every new years resolution and goal for this year, and this will be my final hoorah (oo-er). I am determined to make it.
To everyone else out there, whatever your struggling for time with. Whether it’s finals, exams, work things, Christmas presents, Christmas planning, blogmas, vlogmas or all of the above: we can do this. Let’s finish 2o16 with a bang (oo-er), and go out like heroes (dramatic, eh?).
So guys, that’s unfortunately it for tonight’s blogmas. I promise there will continue to be more, one every evening until Christmas. And beyond. I’m planning on missing Christmas Eve and Christmas Day of blogmas, but I will be continuing to post every day until the end of 2016 to make up for it. You just might have to deal with a lot of waffle and more tell, less show until then.
Til tomorrow, bloggers,
Jess
Jessica G Allen 